Shall we have a catch up?

Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz

Hi, it’s me, Jess. I know It’s been a while since I blogged properly on here. In truth, it’s been a while since I’ve found the motivation to be on here. I had no words, I had nothing I wanted to share, I’ve spent the past few months coasting through life, I’ve been on auto pilot but I finally feel like my old self again, I finally feel ready to just chat everything out - It’s been a weird few months. I don’t want to coast anymore.

Last Friday, I was signed off work for two weeks with stress. Up until that point I’ve not been having the greatest of times. I’ve constantly felt unmotivated, no drive, no passion, not wanting to do much of anything which isn’t really like me at all. I like to be busy, I like to be productive - all I wanted to do was hide in my bed. My blog has suffered as has my various other channels I run, when you’re feeling like this, your accounts can’t just keep themselves ticking over, if the efforts not put in you lose the momentum, everything kinda comes to a halt but, that’s fine. If you need a break you need a break. The momentum will come back, the opportunities will come back. Instead of forcing myself to create I just left everything, until I really felt better to start back up again. Today is the first day in a very long time I’ve wanted to do anything remotely creative for my blog, it’s a nice feeling to have again. It’s time to work hard again, it’s time to achieve again - I hope lol. Things have been really really quite.

The day after I was signed off work my anxiety was through the roof, I was having a really rough time. I was tired of pretending I was ok and I finally admitted how I was feeling. It wasn’t until the middle of my first week off I felt clam for the first time in months. I felt relaxed, I felt motivated, I felt happy. I felt like me again - I was really scared I was never going to get to that point again. I was terrified about taking this time off away from work but it was the best thing I could have done and I’m glad I did it. I’ve taken time for me, I’ve relaxed, I’ve pottered around my flat and organised myself, I’ve read, I’ve seen my friends and I’ve seen my family, it’s been very wholesome and has done me the world of good.

Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz
Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz
Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz

So that brings to me to now. The above is the reason I’ve not really been here and not really been updating anything or doing my weekly round ups. But I guess I do have bits to up date you on which is good - my life didn’t go totally to shit :-)

I’ve been really hammering the gym, like really hammering it. For me, working out is an escape and a really good stress reliever. I’ve had fun pushing my body, seeing what it can do and how strong I can make it. I’ve always really loved exercise so it’s been nice to create space in my life to accommodate how much I want to do. I still want to try my hand at indoor rock climbing, try Lagree again and maybe try lollipop and some stretch classes? 


I’ve also fallen more in love with pole. Like I’ve always loved it but I think my above efforts at the gym have really helped with the progress I’ve been making at pole. I’m more willing to give moves a go rather then just thinking I’ll never be able to do that. I’ve done something super scary and booked in for a pole smoke shoot - my first pole shoot ever! I’m really nervous I just won’t be able to do the moves so I’m just going to practice my 6 chosen ones until they’re perfect.


I got a new tattoo, I booked in a little while ago to have the symbols from skin and earth tattooed on me, it was a nice little pick me up from the day before when I had been signed off - I’m supper happy I finally got this tattoo. I’ve also booked in for another one at the end of November - a much bigger piece, I’m so excited to get it done.

Last week I also did something proactive and exciting. This is quite cryptic and annoying and I’, probs jinxing the heck out of it but it’s all I can think about. It was super positive and fun and basically I hope I get the result I want. I’m trying not to get my hopes up but I’ll actually be crushed if it doesn’t happen. More on that soon when I find out - depending on how it goes.


Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz
Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz
Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz

So, for the rest of my time off I’m still going to concentrate on myself whilst plotting and brainstorming my content. It’s time to up my game now I’m feeling more motivated. I want to end this year on a successful high ready to to on 2020. lol as if we only have 3 more months of this decade. Scary shit. But seriously, it’s time to get serious.

Also, gold star to you if you made it to the end or even read this ramble. It took my like 3 hours to write . . . . 

Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz
Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz
Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz
Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz


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