Friday, 15 June 2018

Is being overwhelmed and underwhelmed even a thing?

Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz Styles Disturbia Outfit
You know what, I had it all mentally written down in my head the things I wanted to say and write in this post but as I've come to open up my MAC and logged into blogger it's all seemed to have gone. Upside down emoji face.

I am currently the embodiment of that Kim Kardashian meme where she's laid down in bed looking all pissy about something, I have been all week - why? I'm not entirely sure. I'm feeling overwhelmed with trying to get my blog to flourish, trying to get my social channels to grow, trying to make interesting and engaging content. I want to excel in my job role, I want to get really really fit and make my body strong, I want to be a good friend , a good human, I want to spend time with Jim and I feel like I'm failing. I'm juggling too much but I can't really cut anything out you know? I have a big old list of shit I need to get done and the more things that are piling on, the more I'm just burying my head in the sand. Why? Because as well as being overwhelmed with ~life~ I'm feeling very underwhelmed too.

Is that even possible?

My current mental state is not a great one. I am bored. Everything seems so routine at the moment that it's making me have 0 interest in anything I apply myself to do. Which doesn't help with the wanting to flourish aspect of my issues - it's all become a bit of an annoying circle. I'm very very aware success does not come overnight, nor would I ever expect it to. Good things take time and hard work and I'm all for putting it in, it's just becoming a little disheartening when progress seems to be a little stagnant. And this doesn't apply to just blogging. I'm knackering myself at the gym and making better food choices so I'm actually nourishing my body, but seeing nothing in the way of progress I'm trying my hardest with my career to excel and I'm trying to grow my social channels to [unfortuanlty] be taken more seriously as a blogger [even though apparently numbers don't mean a thing. . . .] with v little return, It's making me feel well, underwhelmed. 

But of course, this is me. I'm determined and I set out to smash goals and not miss them. I'm currently just bored of trying and I've treated you all to a little brain dump of what's going on in my head. 

This weekend I plan to relax. Create some content I love and not overthink it. It's important we allow ourselves to feel and acknowledge what we are feeling in order for us to move on, it's not all sunshine and fucking rainbows [well, my wardrobe exculded] and it would be great to have a PMA 100% of the time but that would just be v unrealistic, sometimes you just need a good all brood and grumble and this is mine. 

I feel as though I do need to point out the top I wearing says melancholy - very apt no? This was the other piece I was very kindly gifted for attitude clothing last week and I love it. It's the perfect top to feel moody and brooding in. Even more so with my ''get the fuck away from me'' spike trousers. I'm not one for invited personal contact so I feel like these trousers speak to me on a personal level and understand my need for space - both Disturbia originally and both badass. 

Wearing: 
Top* Disturbia from Attitude Clothing | Trousers Disturbia | Shoes Vans x Lazy Oaf | Belt NastyGal


Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz Styles Disturbia Outfit
Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz Styles Disturbia Outfit
Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz Styles Disturbia Outfit
Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz Styles Disturbia Outfit
Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz Styles Disturbia Outfit
Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz Styles Disturbia Outfit
Alternative Fashion Blogger Foxxtailz Styles Disturbia Outfit

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