Wednesday, 27 July 2016

27.07.2016


I kinda wanted to stop doing the thing where I prattle on for a good paragraph in my blog posts before I get to the actual point of why I'm writing one up in the first place apparently that ain't happening anytime soon. I've had so much go on in actual life I haven't had the mental capacity to actually update my poor old neglected blog. I feel like the days where I used to update at least 3 times a week are well gone after I've tried so hard to bring that blogging practice back.

A lil roundup/ insight into what's been going on for you all.

I lost my marketing job a few weeks ago. I was gutted and basically, I have spent every spare bit of my time looking for a new marketing role. I got offered one yesterday and as of the 15th of August I'll be doing something I love again but this time as a marketing executive. Go me. 

Alongside, all the job hunting and interview prepping I've been training for a 10K and honestly I think I've burnt myself out a bit. My body hurts and I am physically tired. Mix that with and unhealthy mindset of how I perceive my body its kinda taken its toll on me mentally and physically. I struggled with my eating or not so much of it a few years back and well after getting help, I no longer do the bad things I used to do but sometimes its just so damn hard to shake that monkey off you shoulder making you feel so incredibly guilty for eating, this is what's happening right now. It's something I spend a lot of my energy daily trying not to be bothered about. Some days I find it easy to ignore some days it's all consuming. This is the first time I've addressed this ever publicly, I've always been so private about it but the words have just seemed to come out. For now, my connection with food and how I feel about it is something I'm kinda stuck with at the moment. It comes in fits and starts, sometimes I'm ok with it, sometimes not so much. 

However, I do like exercise and I do think it is good for my mental well being, I'm just tired right now and just want to hit pause on everything. 

I was going to go into an #OOTD type post, this wasn't at all the intended post theme at all, I just kinda got word vomit and well here we are.  















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  1. Jess, you have to look after yourself! When you've had issues with eating in the past, it's so hard to keep a handle on your diet when you're trying to be healthy. You've been doing amazing with your running recently so if you need to take a break, take a break! You can message me on Twitter if you ever need a chat. x

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    1. Thank you so much this means a lot x

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  2. It's kinda good that you've opened up about your eating ok your blog, now we can all support you! Congrats on your new job as well, hopefully you'll enjoy it as much as that last!

    The Velvet Black | UK Style & Beauty Blog

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    1. Thank you lovely! It's something I've always kept to myself and never shares openly but for some reason it all came flooding out in this.

      Thank you darling x

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